jaded. i'm going to keep to myself for a while till i feel better. in the meantime, if i do have something to say, i'll do so on my LJ get-away/hideout instead. other than that, i'll be missing in action, in here. be back soon.
♥382, only you're left.
20060810
*spazzes alone*
there's so many things on my mind right now.
I FUCKEN WANT MY MYV ILLiB DVD! I NEED TO REGISTER FOR JLPT 3! I NEED TO GO FOR THE OBS MEDICAL CHECKUP THING! I NEED TO GET NEW PASSPORT SIZED PHOTOS DONE! I HAVE THE KC FORUM TO WORRY ABOUT! I HAVE GEOG AND SOCIAL STUDY ASSIGNMENTS! I DUNNO WHAT ELECTIVES TO JOIN FOR TERM 3! I NEED TO ORDER THE MYV PARIS PHOTOBOOK AND GAZETTE CONCERT DVD!
i hate it when i have so many things on my mind. and i can't get about doing any one of them.
miyavi's doing his radio show live right now at the shibuya NHK studios! damn i so need to find a way to hear him on NHK world radio even if i don't have a megapowered radio that can pick up airwaves all the way from japan. it's in english some more!
gazette revamped their website and it looks absolutely stunning *_* every member has got a new look! got so hyped up that i sent reita and uruha fanmails commenting that their new hairstyle looks really suave! XD I AM SUCH A NUT.
okay i'm going to destress by watching tv now. i can't think anymore u_u;;
20060808
the noisy kids downstairs are somewhat annoying
was thinking about miyavi too much recently, so i decided to pluck up my courage and send him A MAIL! 99.9999% in japanese. (in japanese, you say 99.9999..% as, 'kyuu jyuu kyuu ten kyuu kyuu kyuu kyuu kyuu.. etc etc pasento'. sounds cute right! ^^) damn nervous i was, and i got paranoid over my grammar.
i still can't believe i sent him a mail .__.;; (you can read more about it HERE lol)
it was something really simple, yet 100% sincere and straight from my heart. i doubt i will get back a reply, but i could always wish for a small indication that he has read it, and it would be much appreciated (:
ah, love.
on a sidenote, had a great time today! G people, you are all so awesome you bring all the memories back. feels really good to sit together and make so much noise with all that crazy laughter XD love you all! watched lake house together, almost fell asleep cause it was boring during the first part. it was really emo and all romancy, and half the time i was baffling myself with the things that had no logical explaination to it. then again, it's supposed to be like that. found it ridiculous, but aww cheesy's the way we like it right. sucks when there's no happy ending *pouts* honestly it'll do great for a book, but for a movie, eh i don't know yeh.
also got wind of some hot news. i feel really neutral, yet i have no idea why i keep thinking about it. i'm really cool with it, honest. realised that the one who got fckdup could have been me, and i felt really disgusted. but anyhow, i'd like to leave it behind where it is supposed to be. wasn't an easy job licking wounds yknow.
just drank a cup of milk, having tummy aches now. and since i'm feeling fangirly,
miyavi and one of my favourite songs! Jingle bells (Kari). makes me wanna sway and jingle my nose XD LOL. his guitar solo is so ferrken AWESOME! he's like standing there looking like it's nothing but his fingers are flying all over the strings o_o wtf *bows* and his fingers are so beautiful! *o*;;
okay YEY.
20060806
the peterpan syndrome, not.
i figured it would be fun to let people enjoy endless scrolling of the page, so i up-ed the number of entries displayed on the main page to be 20, hoho. suckerrrs.
yesterday, i did absolutely NOTHING that would benefit my future, (eg studying and posting on the KC forums (; ) got up at 12, had an arguement in the house, gave up and went to get a haircut. the hairdresser cut it like a n00b. don't know whtthfk he was doing cause in the end, it seems like he didn't cut anything at all. i don't like my hairstyle anyways. before trimming and after trimming, i suddenly feel like my head's too big and round and my hair's too little and too short and i feel ugly yada yada.. (could go on forever)
came back and played with photoshop. i wanted to do something big like a wallpaper or a layout, but ended up having a designer-block. or photoshop-block whatever you call it. cause i have 7529373298 pictures, but none of them were good enough. like they were either too unclear, the background's too colourful, the pictures are too small, and the worst of it all, THE PICTURES ALWAYS CUT OF SOME PARTS OF THE BODY/BACKGROUND. and when that happens, i'm not the kinda person that will spend HOURS trying to figure out a way to put a collage of pictures together seamlessly and blend it so well that no one could tell that the pics were cut off, but were overlapped by something else. (cause my present wallpaper almost killed me.) i hate blending, especially when it's big scale. on the other hand, i LOVE making icons! (though i think i can make just decent-enough ones) i adore cropping images, cause i can crop something plain into something way cooler. blending is much easier for icons too. and once i start, i can never stop. i think that icons tell a bigger story than a layout or a wallpaper (: okay i think i talk too much :x
in the end, i made a new layout for Anger Management! (aka the other emo blog) and that proves why i suck at layouts. Reita's clothes got cut off and i don't know how to cover it up (prolly stamp on a brush or something? too obvious.) and there's not much smoothness in there. looks nothing professional but i like it cause it features one of my fave pictures of Gazette (: there's also a big distinct ugly cut between the images and the background entries once you scroll down. (makes me wanna puke but, pretend not to notice it alright?) the html took me ages cause i hate and suck at codings, even n00b ones. and now, i have to think of what to do with those entries cause they're really sappy and n00bish (no other vocabs to describe lol) and i'm over the whole thing already.
i therefore bow down to julia (ZOOLIA) cause i don't know hwthfk she does layouts and wallpapers so nicely, and to shirleen simply because she writes so damn good.
ooh i also watched the superband finals (on tv lah duh). had minor spasms here and there throughout the show cause i got a bit too worked up XD i really don't think one of the bands should have gotten into the top 2, but i will shut my trap because i'm not going to offend fans of theirs. the SB champion is also a bit ehhh :1 (it's kinda obvious that the bands i support got kicked out right LOL) and and! i think that Lucify reminded me of Due'le Quartz when they wore their opening outfit! *OMFG!* shinya reminded me of a cross between sakito and kazuki (plus the hair), kuek reminded me of a cross between kikasa and miyavi, and vics reminded me of a cross between kazuki and kikasa. just one thing, they're not half as good looking as DlQ LOL, no offence. but i thought that Lucify and J3's performances were good. MLB is kinda err, too young and cute, luh.
UWAAAAAA~~~ T-T *gets all emo thinking about DlQ again* i also know that 90% of the things i write here doesn't really bother you in any way. oh well.
i'm going to take the JLPT 3 test this year. i'm so going to work hard cause i don't wanna fail and I DON'T CARE IF I'M TOO PARANOID!
okay ima go post on the knowledge constructor now for fear that bala will hit me if i don't. no wait, i'm going to have lunch first MWAHAHA.
can't wait for tuesday! x) i'm actually looking forward to a tuesday for the first time!
&!VODKA&IRONY
{ C }
the kind of girl who mopes around about stuff ALOT & somedays on mute mode
&!SLIP'N'SLIDE
A LEFT-HANDER WHO FEEDS ON JROCK :D
Is a caffeine addict, & doesn't mind giving up talking for good.
With not much self-confidence to start with, her ugly teeth upset her a lot but she plans to do nothing about it. Cheap thrills include rainy days, graphic designing, writing & a little dosage of her jrock darlings.
Can conjure up some really good shit in her mind sometimes, but has problems putting them onto paper and into reality.
Overall an average kid who's neither here nor there in everything she does, & gets bothered by it sometimes. Has trouble finding her direction in life.
Mostly negative and wishes to be more apathetic. Currently finding a way to start a new life in Japan, with a different name.
Still likes to talk to inanimate things like her stuffed penguin.
